Finally, I seem to be earning some money

10 April, Thursday: Had a bit of a strange interview at a local firm that actually lasted about 5 hours. It was an interesting experience though, and it's lovely to know that so many people genuinely wish the best for those they meet. (or at least that's the impression they gave me...)
11 April, Friday: Uploaded a bunch of stuff on Carousell and managed to sell some stuff. Also, got a job! Remuneration and working conditions seem to be better than what I expected to get, but it's too soon to say that now. Fingers crossed though!

I wish you'd let me know, even if it only lasts a while

Now that it's been decided that I am going after all,
it feels too much like leaving.
And I realise how badly I want and need you to tell me:
stay.



15th March, Saturday: Honestly, nothing much happened.
16th March, Sunday: Let my parents know about the news with UCL. They agreed.
17th March, Monday: Got my green tea McFlurry!
18th March, Tuesday: Two more Tuesdays left. I hope they will be better than this one was.
19th March, Wednesday: Slept in. Spent a cosy afternoon on the armchair swaddled in my thick blanket as I alternated between doing work and watching YouTube videos on air disasters. Somewhat like the old days in secondary school and junior college.

On Wednesday I saw an old man pushing a cleaning trolley just outside Raffles City. He seemed to be struggling and paused often. As he proceeded the pauses became more frequent, sometimes as often as every four or five steps. The floor was slightly sloped which might have been the reason for his struggle. I followed him for a bit. Thought of helping him, then decided to proceed with my life as usual. Comforted myself with the thought that I am not a horrible person, because everyone else was doing the same. I knew, even as I turned away, that it was a horrible thought.

10 March, Monday: Went for a drink and got buzzed to just the right amount, and was still able to wake up on time the next day! Also did a bit of nighttime reading before going to bed, a habit I'm trying to cultivate instead of just staring at my laptop/phone.
11 March, Tuesday: I love how M tells me some things that I think he is rather uncomfortable telling other people about. And though I doubt anything will happen, I know I will miss our Tuesday classes when the semester ends.
12 March, Wednesday: Funny video calls.
13 March, Thursday: Had a good afternoon with last semester's classmates. Received an unconditional offer from UCL. Excited about it but not sure if I will take it up just yet, we shall see.
14 March, Friday: Exhausting day. Glad I made it through. Watched the rest of Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. Also, I really like/appreciate it when guys offer to carry things for you, especially when I truly do need the help.

On a side note, the days have been flying past and my second semester is ending in less than a month now, or only 2-3 weeks if you consider revision week. If I do indeed leave for UK, I will miss the time spent this semester.

6th to 9th March

6th March: Finished my assignment, even though it probably definitely was a bad job.
7th March: Bummed around instead of studying. Glad I still know how to procrastinate despite the relentless positive peer pressure to study.
8th March: Thought I did pretty decently in the mid-term. It was probably the first mid-term where I actually knew what to write. Later took bus 103 all the way into Seletar. It's been the first time I've done that for a while because I was so afraid of the place changing terribly. Yes, it has changed. It is no longer as desolate and quiet as I remember it to be. Plan to take another trip and walk around on foot a bit to see if there are still areas that are calm and abandoned. Completed the series of House and watched Moonrise Kingdom.
9th March: The calming croaking of frogs outside my window has been going on for the past few hours since nightfall.

I'm going to put this out here only so that I will actually do it - Planning to take some shots and submit them to agencies. Hopefully I'll get a Plan B to what I'm currently studying.

Wahey, I can tick off at least one of my 2013 new year's resolutions after getting a job today! It's a great relief to know that I won't end up failing to achieve even a single one and at least I won't feel like so much of a failure when 2014 rolls around...

The job is really dull though. Just sitting on my bum making cold calls for eight hours. I've been thinking of doing part-time modelling and freelance writing to supplement my measly income.

In other news, I got emails from both UCAS and Leicester uni telling me that they've received my application. Thank goodness I have my job keeps me busy all the time if not I'd just be checking my email every 15 minutes to see if I've got any offers.

I could really use a wish right now

As I wait for my hair to dry so that I can get to bed, maybe it's time to start listing down some resolutions for 2013 so that I have something to write one year later. Looking at my 2012 resolutions, I think I did reasonably well for 1 through 4. As for the last resolution on exercising... Well.

1. GET. A. JOB. I seriously need the money for university or other plans if I don't get to uni (really hoping this doesn't happen though)
2. Be more independent. I might be moving overseas for university education, so I better learn how to cook and take care of myself. Anyway, it's time I learn how to operate the kitchen stove...
3. Save $$$. Connected to #1. I plan to be more thrifty, at least to a reasonable extent. I'm already pretty thrifty, according to those around me (clearly not a good gauge)
4. Exercise. I'm sick of including this in my new year's resolutions every year.

Wishes for 2012:
GET INTO UNI PLEASE! Really keen on the University of Bristol even though  my chances are weak. I've already completed my application and even applied to UCL but I'm not expecting much from that because even I know my limits sometimes.
Good health for family and friends, particularly my dad. I'm sure my getting into uni will lessen his burden greatly.

I realise I didn't even wish for good A-level results, but then the getting into uni pretty much covers that. Also I need to complete my US uni college application but I have no idea how to do so and the deadline's really soon (i.e. less than 36 hours time). My dad's not keen on me letting my good SAT scores go to waste, particularly since my chances with the UK uni's look worryingly slim.

Some things to do after A's

Some things that I absolutely must do after these pesky exams are over:

-Finish reading David Copperfield. I got to the part where his aunt loses her money, and then decided to cease all leisure reading activity because I felt that I should be studying. Unfortunately any time spent by not reading DC ended up on things such as sleeping, internet, staring into blank space, etc.
-Earn money. Really want to save up in case I go overseas for university. Anyway I don't want to depend on my parents too much seeing as I'm turning 18 soon... Who am I kidding, I just want to be able to buy more rubbish.
-Clean out my room. To make space for aforementioned rubbish, and because my room pretty much resembles some kind of homework, textbook and binder file junkyard at the moment.
-Learn Japanese
-Watch Orthros no Inu because Nishikido Ryo is in it and it looks pretty interesting. This can also count as learning Japanese I guess.

I wanted to add exercising to this list too, but that won't happen so soon for sure.